Heart To Heart.

Happy Weekend Everyone!
Today, we skipped Scarlett's swim class. She has some skin irritation from the chlorine.
Instead, I thought we could sit down and have a heart to heart while she is napping.

Most of you don't know me.
I am a mere stranger in this blogger world.
Let's get to know each other.
If you were my friend, I would tell you I am just a simple girl.
I would be shy at first but give me a couple days to warm up to you.
Trust me, I love to talk.

I would tell you that I feel like I have so much I want to accomplish.
There seems like there is never enough time in the day.
I want to do something good for others.
I would tell you I have a soft spot for babies and young children.
I am researching charities to volunteer for or sponsor.

If you were my friend, I would tell you that I am overwhelmed with our life lately.
That I don't know where or what we will be doing in the next few months
And I struggle to let that be.


I would tell you that I reminisce often...about good and bad times.
And I would tell you how my soul has softened greatly in the last couple of years.

I would tell you that this week I have worried about how we will do this, or how we will manage that.
Then, I came across a blog of a mother, my age, who was diagnosed with breast cancer and after a long battle, the doctors told her there was nothing left that they could do. To go home and plan her funeral....spend time with family and say good bye to her small babies.
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I would tell you that after reading that and crying for 20 minutes, I felt selfish and let go of all my stupid worries.


I have Scarlett. I have Ty. I have love.
I would tell you how I feel too many people take life for granted.
I would tell you that when I read people's endless complaining about this and that... I have no sympathy.

I would tell you that she had a miracle at her next Dr's appointment.
The doctors told her the cancer was miraculously gone!
I would tell you I cried again.
I would explain to you how stories like that make me believe.
And how I am not ashamed of believing in God.

My friend...I would tell you that Scarlett started clapping a couple days ago!
That I can't help but ask her to clap every hour now :)
I would tell you that Scarlett's has never slept through the night ever.
It doesn't bother me one bit anymore, I have learned to adapt to my precious little baby.

I would tell you that I wish I had more time for my friends.
That when I go back for short visits, I feel guilty that I don't get to see everyone.
I would tell you that I am more in love with Ty every day.
I often feel that I brag about him .
But he is so amazing that I have this urge to tell someone how happy he has made me.
What else? We need to buy a new car but the thought of car shopping leads me to procrastinate.

I would tell you that I feel like I live at the grocery store, (lol) but I'm going again today.
I would tell you that I am jealous when I see other pregnant women.
I know that it would be ridiculous to have another baby now with all that is going on.

But I still long for another baby to love...
Who would have thought I, of all people, would feel this way???

I would tell you that I have writer's block with my book, lately.
That music is my number one inspiration.
I would tell you that I secretly love watching Olivia just as much as Scarlett. ;)
I would thank you for listening.
If you were my friend I would ask how you are.

How are you on this lovely day?