A Much Needed Love Letter.

Dear Ty, 

When you first met me, you were so sure of us. You knew that I would be worth the risk.

I love that about you.

Lord knows that you are indecisive. You spend 15 minutes in the breakfast aisle, deciding on cereal. ;)

But when it came to me, you knew right away that I was worth it.

I know loving me isn't always easy.

Sometimes I am moody, selfish, impatient and I'm "always right". 

But you see past all of that, even on the bad days,

You see the best of me.

Thank God for that.
And I try everyday to be better.

My wonderful Ty, 

I don't know what I would do without you. You are everything that I wish to be.

Patient. Kind. Selfless. Laid back. Loving.

These past few weeks have been hard. Stressful.

When I'm down and ready to give up, you always pull me back in.

When I want to give up.

When I want to let go of you.

When I think you deserve more.

When I say things I don't mean. 

When I think it's all wrong.

When the road gets rough.

You ignore every painful word I speak and pull me into you.

You never give up on me.

And you show me through your selflessness & kindness, that no matter what, you are there.

Like a rock. 

I think that's what love is all about. 

It's about finding the person worth fighting for and never giving up on them. 

I am sorry.

And you know why...

Remember when we first met? How there was so much passion? 

The chemistry between us was like magic.

Remember how you looked at me while you rode your motorcycle by me as I was jogging? 

...........I could never forget that look.

Remember how I'd always run back to kiss you good-bye a second time, because I missed you before I'd even left?

Every relationship starts like that. But that "always want to be with you", "Never gonna hate you", "So in love" feeling isn't always as strong as it is in the beginning. Life can throw things in the mix that cause struggles. As life goes on, you start to realize that anyone can feel like that in the beginning. It's getting through those messy times that most people can't accomplish.

Remember when we saw that elderly couple, probably in their eighties, out on a date at the chinese restaurant? The old lady was all dolled up and the man who could barely walk opened the car door for her. And then they sat in their parked car, kissing. We were laughing at how rare it is to see an old couple like that. So in love.

I love when you tell me that we are going to be that little old couple at the chinese restaurant. 

The little old couple that everyone talks about. 

Together and more and more in love everyday. 

I want that.

Baby, thank you for seeing past my bad qualities. 

Thank you for understanding my moments of sadness and helping me smile again.

I hope I can give to you, one ounce of what you have given to me.
I can't wait to marry you.

I love you. Always. Forever. No matter what.

~Lauren 


     If you haven't read.....Our love story HERE.