Live.

This holiday weekend is going by in the blink of an eye. Isn't that always how it goes? 

Time flies when you're having fun? 

I was laying outside by the pool, watching Scarlett play with her Daddy in the water, kicking & splashing, & I couldn't help but think about how happy I am. After a stressful month or two, and lots of praying,  I am thrilled with the way things turned out. 

 All the worry was for nothing & everything has fallen into place.  It became obvious to me that enjoying each precious day, is what really matters. Scarlett is already one year old! It went by in the blink of an eye. I want it back.  

I want all those days back...

The day she was born.

The first terrifying night at home, when I had no clue what to expect.

The tears I shed after watching my baby sick in the hospital.

The amazement of watching Scarlett crawl for the first time.

The first night that she wrapped her little arms around me & cuddled me.

The way her Daddy checks on her a million times in the night.

Her two little teeth poking through.

How she crawls around the house with two rings in her hands, always. 

And then there are all those memories with Ty that I hold so close to me.

The first day I laid eyes on him.

The way he looked back at me.

Riding on the back of his bike, that one day.

The way he lets me be right, even if I'm wrong.

Sitting in that restaurant, looking across the table at him.

That unforgettable night on the beach...the first time I kissed him.

I want those moments back. But I'll never get them back. They are gone. All that's left of them lies in our hearts. Which reminds me that I need to live each day to the fullest. I need to love every second, grab hold of every moment and live it 'til it slips away from me.

I have been practicing this more and more lately.

Having babies does this to you. It wakes you up from living a life full of meaninglessness. I can tell you what true happiness is.It's looking into our baby's eyes and knowing that she needs us. It's always wanting to be with the one you love. It is being content in the little things. It's the faint smell of soap on Ty's skin. It's falling asleep in his arms every night. It's playing "Where is Scarlett" over & over because I love that perfect giggle. It's watching myself grow and become a wiser, better person. I am, by no means, an example to live by. In many ways, I am still learning. I fall down, too.
But happiness is where I am.

I have come to believe that happiness comes from living life to the fullest. 

Taking each single moment and squeezing every bit of life from it. Even if I'm having a bad day, learn from it. Take it and make something good out of it.  Once that day is gone, it's never coming back....

Truly Live your life.