27 Weeks.

 

It's 5:30 am right now and I'm up writing this because, well, let's face it...sleep is not my friend anymore. Entering the 3rd trimester here and just like textbook, I'm beginning to get all those end of pregnancy symptoms. Well, I guess I've had them for a few weeks now. They came on much earlier this time. My entire back feels like it's out of commission every morning, my right rib may very well be broken from my little boxer in there and I'm pretty sure that what I feel like is a cold in my chest is just some squished lungs. I wake up at 12:30 am and 2:30 am like clock work. At 5:45 am I'm up for the day. If you know me, I'm not a morning person at. all. But I've really been enjoying my quiet mornings. Just me and my boy with some decaf and my computer or an early morning TV show. I never watch TV so sometimes this is a nice way to ease into my day before work.

Sleep is something that I've grown accustomed to going without. Scarlett was never a good sleeper and I've just kind of gotten used to the middle of the night calls that even now at 3 1/2 years old, continue. Those cries from down the hall to go potty or have a sip of water don't bother me anymore. Waking up at 2:30 am and watching an old classic movie for 30 min before I can fall asleep again doesn't bother me. In fact, all the things that stressed me out the first time around, I'm more relaxed about this time. I know that it is all temporary. And I know that waking up twice a night is nothing compared to what it was like with my newborn Scarlett. I'm prepared for that all over again. And if I luck out and get one of those sleeper babies.....(not likely and do those really exist? haha) then I'll be thankful.

I sat down the other day and said, wow, in about 13 weeks, my baby will be here! At this point I'm glad that things are still going by quickly, however I do need to get on the ball with finishing the nursery and buying baby gear. I'm surprised by how much I need for the second baby. A lot of the things that I had for Scarlett I have gotten rid of and those that I kept, are outdated or have had recalls. Luckily her crib that she only used maybe 12 times is still usable.

One thing that I am still struggling to find is a stroller that will fit both an almost 4 year old that still likes to sit during long walks and a growing infant. At first I had my heart set on a Bugaboo Donkey but the weight maximum states 38 lbs in each seat....I'm pretty sure Scarlett weighs 40 lbs now. Anyone have the Donkey with feedback? Or any other suggestions?

I'm still working full time and taking care of a toddler when I'm not at work. I'm still doing my workouts which help with the back pain but I gotta tell yeah, I have many tired days. I know most of it is because I'm running on little sleep. But I make it work and I'm excited to start this new chapter in our lives as a family of 4. I know motherhood is going to be a lot different as a mother of two. I try and think of the ways that I will multi-task giving attention to Scarlett and caring for an infant. I'm not too worried about Scarlett adjusting to a new brother. My little girl is such a nurturer that I have a feeling she will be just like I was when I became a sister at 4 years old. I was over the moon thrilled to have a baby to care for; to pretend was my own. Scarlett's a natural little mother and I love that about her. She gives her baby brother a kiss good-bye everyday when I drop her off at daycare. Melts my heart. The teachers swoon at my sweet girl.

Feeling blessed...lucky and thankful because I've been on the other end of this. I've been very alone and without anything fulfilling. I've seen many dark days. I think when you have been to that point, you appreciate things a whole lot more. I know I do.





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