Stirring.

Every now and then, I feel seasons changing for me. A stirring that starts out mild and quickly grows into this abundant urge. I felt this right before I left my long time boyfriend for Ty...right before I switched careers, before I found out I was pregnant with Maxwell, and prior to our last move. I guess I am the kind of person who loves new adventures. Although, I think life has tamed down quite a bit over the last few years as we built a family.

Lately, life has been anything but adventurous. It's been filled with the same old: work, clean, eat dinner, sleep pattern....Snooze fest for a wild soul. I try to balance the joy of raising my little ones and the desire for adventure. I know that my little babies are growing quicker than I want them to. I celebrate each new milestone all the while mourning the last stage. Balance is often tricky.  I try and think of what it is that my life is craving. What food can I feed is my soul? I know travel is an answer to that but Ty has taken a new position and has very little vacation time at this time. And so we hang onto that one for now. I do know that I need to travel more when the time allows. We never did it before having children and it is a choice we made. Well, maybe not a choice....but it's how things happened. I know that season will come for us again.

I have read now and again about how others want to live a simpler life and that that is the key to a happy life. I agree that when I simplify my life of material things, that stands true. However, I don't think that is the case for me in every other aspect. Every person is different. Their wants and needs, their personality. For me, I need spark. I want adventure and excitement. Over the years I have found ways to balance this with reality. I'm a Leo and there is something to be said about those zodiac signs. I am the epitome of that Lion sign. I have mentioned plenty of times that life is full of chapters. A book with a beginning and an end- the middle full of plot twists and excitement, happy moments and other times, blue pages. In the past I've thought about naming my blog posts by chapter....something to contemplate in the future.

Change is coming very soon for me. I started writing this post about a month ago and never finished it because I just wasn't sure what my point to the post was or where I was going with it. But now that changes are starting to make an appearance, I revisited this post understanding it much more. A few changes are on their way in the very near future. I'm not sure how long or what that will mean for us, but I feel it's time and whether I'm really ready or not, onto the next chapter we go.